I feel much better now, after I talked to
Squadron. For a moment I thot my depression days are coming back after me, that I'll be prone to more depression soon. Sometimes, it takes just a lil understanding, and flexibility to work things out. I guess you are right
Squadron, that somethings can't be done alone. But my mentality of solo-misery is more of my cuppa tea. We do have seperate views, but I know, it'll be almost impossible to go thru this phase alone. Like sometimes it makes me crazy, like I'm a mad man, or a physcopath.
But it just hurts and sad, when dreams you had, are crushed and distorted. When things you have to do are not in your best favour. But I'm glad you understand me. I hope, that it'll finally work out one day. And I hope it soon.