.: Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds :.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

I ♥ Squadron 11:05 PM

It's nice to have someone to care for you. And it's nice to care for someone. But if that someone wants to care more than as friends when you care him just like friends, is it nice? You can't bear to break his broken heart, but your heart is actually hoping for that one prince whom seems to have no reaction. Yeah. That's not nice is it? And then there's not one who wants to care for you more than as a friend, there's 2 other. Now that sucks doesn't it. The one you love doesn't love you back and the one who loves you, you can't seem to find that special love for him in your heart. Why is it so complicated? And then you wonder, what should you do? All are equal nice with shortbacks like every human has. Then you don't know what to do. Fear you'll make the wrong decision. Fear you'll make them hate you, for you can't bear to hate people, but to care. Sometimes I wonder, what is it all about? Why is it so difficult to make the right decision. Then I would wallow in my sorrows. What are they seeing in me? WhAT and WHY ME?!?!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

My prayers were answered! I ♥ Squadron 8:46 PM

Tension suddenly built up on the 8 of February.. The tension was overwhelming till I couldn't concentrate in class, and my lecturer made it worse by scolding me.. Lately, he's really insane. Niways, back to what I was going to say.. I was crying when I placed the phone down. Waiting for the results of the hearing. When he describe me the cane, I was like weeping in silence... I was outta words to say, no more mood to work.. I felt like not wanting to go to school that day.. And when I talked to him, he was so sad and terrified. The tension was killing me, imagine how's the tension like to him. I awaited for my day to end, so I could rush back home and be online, wait for him patiently.. Then he msg me.. Technology these days are wonderful. And so I got the news! What u think? Probhation lahh! If he can msg, he's left off. Duh? How can a person msg behind those walls? And I could hear his laughter and see him smiling.. My goodness.. I'm so relieved.. My prayers that he was let off was heard and answered.. I cried to sleep for tt.. I was so scared about it.. Eventhough we just met, I feel like I've known him for a long time.. And U know. I think I'm here for a reason.. A reason to help people. He's the third person I know whom has a hectic life.. And I'm there for a reason.. I know what it is all about, to help them.. Coz someone they loved wasn't able too.. So I'm here, AND I"M STAYING.. YA ALLAH.......