.: Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds :.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Jalan Kayu for the first time for me with darling Sheera and Fidah and munched on delicious food plus satay! Well, sorry sheery we were late, we had errands to do before meeting you! Caught up with each other after being real busy bees working. Hahaha. Mini celebration for deary sheera as she turns 19 with a really mini choco cake i baked last min and presented her a gift I'm glad she really love. Nanny Diaries after that and it was pretty awesome! Headed home then, and we pledged to see each other soon!

Saturday, September 29, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

It's really irritating with the fact that I don't have a camera within my possessions. Darn.

Dined in at Breeks today with a stomach-bloating feast pratically trying to gorge ourselves, literally, with a finishing touch of deary's brownies as dessert, which he pratically kept on stuffing me with! Usual arcade game which really was testing our patience when we almost, almost completed the whole game! We spent 20bucks just for that one game and we ended up dying, and manage to refrain from spending a lump sum on one stupid arcade! Fret not, I'm sure with our rare talents we'll win the game one day. Caught 'I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry', with reminds me of Deary with Dol, Shammy and Dol. Hehehe. Gay couple, gay, gay. But the movie was awesome. Wanted to catch a second movie midnight, but restrictions. Haha....... Soon dear, SOON...!!!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 7:44 PM

Well, well.. Been real busy with attachment at SupCourt. Now's the training period for phase 1 and I'm pretty much with loads of data preperation for the end users. Overall rating: Bad. Been doing overtime for the past week everyday with no pay. Stayed for 2 hours of free good labour, now they activate us on Saturday as the end users are all coming. If they pay me, I'll be more willing to go. Given $420, don't expect me to do more than this. Some poeple just don't appreciate what you have done for them.

Sheesh....

Saturday, September 22, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 3:13 PM

Things change. And I miss the time when I first got to know you. I miss all that. It's all different now.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

With every great movie, there lies a couple which never fail to catch it all the time! What else? We caught 'No Reservations' today duh! If you were to name me all the movie listings, I can say 90% of it we've watched. The other 10% is due to: Boring movie, not our type of movie, no budget or simply sick and tired of movies already!

Hehe! Deary got me 2 new pair of ear rings which describe vogueness plus stitch shop that explains him so much in my life. Sheesh.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 7:52 PM

NO doubt I admit I do feel some insecurity, not the problem that lies with my Shnookie. But the problem lies with me. Maybe because of his continuous overtime job that I feel that things will pretty much change soon, like I would really miss it all.

I miss the time that he would meet me and pick me from school every night, spend precious time together at the beach, tossing me and turning me around. Carrying me like he's lifting weight. Screaming my lungs out, relieving all the tension, stress or pressure plus the pain and suffering that I've been having for some time. He does make me feel so free and able to do thing that I've been yearning to do all this time. Like he understands me inside out..

I really can't keep secrets from him, I tried. And everytime I tried, he'll know it. He sees right through me, he sense it, by how my attitude is with him that point of time, how lost I can be with where I'm heading. He reads people, which I'm glad about it. He can tell with what I want, with what I've been yearning.

That's why I admire him.

He's understanding, caring and loves me much. Responsible, easygoing and happy at all time are some of his plus points. What I look for in a person I want to be with. Eventhough our age gap and generation is eons plus three, I'm sure with what I'm doing. Parents don't object, friends do support. There's no other reason why I can't be with him, except for myself. I know he wants me to really make sure of what my decision that I choose.

For it, I don't want to make the same mistake twice, least let history takes its place. I wan't to be sure this time it's really love that I'm with him, not because of his kindness, not because he's hard to get. I want it to be mutual love, true love. I'm not afraid of his ability of be responsible of me, but more of my abilities with my own choice. But I know I really have to find myself first before finding the other half. One advantage is, I think I've found the person who'll help me find myself. And I know other-halves are the ones who help their other-halves. My instability it's haunting me. My insurity of myself it's worrying me. I don't even know what to do life after poly. Work, school. Sometimes I do think that maybe I should do some straightening out with myself. Maybe it's time to be a big girl now.. But I don't know how to do just that, without jeopardising things, people around me.. Just maybe I shouldn't think much about this till I've graduated.

That's why with Shnookie frequent overtime that I keep thinking of many things. I don't want to hurt people by getting to their nerves, saying things we wish we could have taken it back. I don't want to make a mistake as big as that.

I know he loves me, I do love my Shnookie too. I'm just afraid. Afraid of so many things.

Monday, September 03, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 7:43 PM

First day of attachment! Today my new journey embarks here. And I'm attached to Supreme Court by Equaria! Darn. Well, life of a QA involves the deepest understanding of the software that has been on created for about a year now. It's pretty boring for the first day, plus scary as I really don't know what to expect from this Supreme Court. But overall, it's doing all fine. Made some good new friends, just counting the days till I get to say "Well, 3months sure did feel fast!".

Sunday, September 02, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 11:46 PM

Eat Mr Bean's and watched Rattatuouile with dear today only managed by booking the tixs yesterday at Marina! Movie's real awesome I admit, one of the best cartoon-animated movie ever! Hehehe. Didn't do much today as it's first day of work for me tomorrow! Sheesh, I'm soooo wishing I'm doing my IAP in Aust! Hehehe.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 11:56 PM

Gosh, deary did got me lotsa stuffs in this one day! With a pair of pants, 2 pairs of shoes and 2 skirts! Sure thing that's alot of shopping today we did, from Century Square to all the way to Marina Square! He got himself a bermudas and a pair of khaki pants. Couldn't manage to catch a movie coz it was jammed pack so we played arcade as usual instead! Enjoyed the view over at the steps infront of Esplanade and watched what youngters like me usually do on a weekend night.. Thanks deary for all of it, it's really nice, and I'm obligated, as always. Hehehe. Love Mr Shammy!

P.S: Would have taken the pics if I have the camera!