.: Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds :.

Monday, March 31, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:00 PM

Lunch with Siti, Nurul, Zoe and Mar over at CP for YTF seems they like my reccomendation yayness! Shopping on the list but didn't find a decent one of my heart's desire. Will wait for Squadron to bring me over to Bugis. Searching for a decent butterfly top in vain. CoffeeBean thereafter as Starbucks was fullhouse with coffee-addicts. Good time spent there. Time forbids us to stay on later hours.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Squadron's been busy with his demanding job. Been spending lesser time together to ensure he doesn't overwork. Can't afford to ride when he's exhausted. Won't want history to repeat. Stubborn Squadron insisted on having supper. Bought supper for my parents before heading to T3 for supper @ Popeye's. Explored the new terminal which is much humongous plus looks a lil like Suvarnabhumi (Su-a-na-poom) Airport from L4. Which reminiscene my trip to BKK. Pretty much having laze time at Popeye's. Didn't accompany Squadron to 2ndLink.

Good time's spent. We'll go bugis kayy soonish (=

Saturday, March 29, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:36 PM

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, 'How do I know if I married the right person?' I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?'

In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?' Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind. Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to do anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... because it's happening to you.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.' Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened to you.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of every relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.

This is when marriages break down. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does not lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And temporarily you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): The Key To Succeeding In Marriage Is Not Finding The Right Person; It's Learning To Love The Person You Found!

Sustaining love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It will never just happen to you. You can't 'find' lasting love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love.'

Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes wisdom. You have to know what to do to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is not a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship will make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable…. you can 'make' love. Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... not just a feeling.

Friday, March 28, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Shopping after a zillion years of scrimping literally. Well, let's just say that if my MNG Jeans didn't make it's last durability statement, I won't be bothered to shop around. Squadron forced me out to Bugis Street to get me decent pair of jeans. Which he ended up getting me 2pairs, plus a top and a nice vesture. Supper at BK's before speeding home. Well, I must say, I prefer Squadron riding at 120km/hr rather than 80km/hr 'cause you'll definately sleep ride..

I ♥ Squadron 11:48 AM

Is it true by the saying: "The one that your heart continues to desire the most will also be the one that will always hurt you the most."

Then is it true by the saying: "The one that makes you cry is the one who isn't worth for and the one who is won't make you cry."

Thursday, March 27, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 AM

Some movie hangout at Fid's with the BC. Her mom made us Fried Noddles plus a few others and we were gorging with junkie. Watched the Little Man as a start before heading to our usual no-sense activities. Squadron fetched me thereafter.

Headed to Mustafa's for a lil necessities shopping. Prices of groceries are a competition to the other localmarkets that I usually head to. Oh well, Squadron did shopped loads of food for the first time. Got his soccer boots finally plus some supplements to go with his old age not that he's really old. Causeway to Johor, after dropping by his place, to fill petrol. I still prefer 2ndLink right to this moment.

Came home to a fuming mother. Hehehe. I reached home 0330. Well, I'm sure I much understood her situation. I'm still as stubborn as ever. Hehehe.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:53 AM

As I accompanied Nurul to pay her application fees, I kept wondering, why did I not apply a course to SMU? I didn't even bother to check for their available courses that they have, but I guess maybe their IT degree weren't as what I applied for elsewhere. Ouh well.

Lunch at BK's before shopping to the streets. Didn't get any as I'm stucked with too many choices. I have 6 tops that I'm eyeing for, but keeping my Prada a close shut. Mayb I should bring Squadron there ey, so he can make a decision for me and if I get lucky, he'll get it for me. Hehehe. I'm not being mean kay. Just a twiny favour won't hurt right? Like have I ever asked him to get me something? Err, can't recall any. hehehe

Monday, March 24, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 10:38 PM

"Tapi papa make mama unhapi"
"Have you forgotten the type of person I am? If I'm unhappy or don't love you anymore, why am I staying?"
"Hehehe i like yr style hehehe. mama good news alhmadulilah papa da confirm staff dapat 100 increment mama"
"Wah.. My dream of getting the k850i or psp is coming true. hehehe"
"Mama papa sori ya. squadron"

He's back to his normal self. After a day long of bickering, after him almost giving up and me giving him a gentle reminder, we're fine as if nothing did happen previously. I admit Shnookie that my mind's not at ease, tensioning with something that I've yet to let go. But somehow as things changed for us drastically few months back, I've lost the comfortability to share certain relationship issues with you, which ended up as my deep secret from you. But I hope, things change for the better, just communication breakdown. As he promised to spend more time with me, I promised to share more with him (=

Yes, Squadron? I'm calling you Squadron kay papa. hehehe

Sunday, March 23, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Recording well so-so last night. My tougue has somewhat forgotten the correct malay language but more of slang than traditional. I'm so ashamed! To think a Diploma holder doesn't speak proper malay. Hehehe. But ouhh well, I did earn the cash through 3hours recording, which is never an easy pea job ey, as whatever you're thinking, or feeling reflects through your voice recordings.

But tonight couldn't get any worst. This a decade plus three years difference man of mine, known as Shnookie, never fails to make me worried hell of him everytime, and this time, I'm fuming mad at him.
He did inform me that he will be bringing his mom out today, to Singtel and Geylang, but will be seeing me at 9pm to fetch his R6 from Kembangan today since it came back from Cameron.

He rang me at 4pm, to tell me that he just reached Singtel but didn't bring his cell with him, said he'll follow up with me later. I was prefectly fine with that, and expected him later than 9pm as he's out with his mom. But until 10pm I didn't hear from him, didn't even ring me to inform me of the follow ups. I've tried his cell gazillion times tho I know it'll be useless as it's sitting at home, holler his place but was of no response, text his sister but she was working so my last resort and hopes were his mom's cell. But then, she didn't answer.

And hell I was worried I'm out of ideas. My last resort was to drop by his place if I don't hear from him by 2 in the morning. Thank God at 2330 when I rang his place, his mom answered and I was so relieve to hear his mom's voice like I've never hear her voice in gazillion years. All I had in mind was Alhamdulilah they are both safe. But I just couldn't stop worrying that it turns to anger.

Fuming mad why he didn't even bother to ring me up and let me know of the follow ups. He was at his aunt's place and was watching TV and didn't find it necessary to ring me up. Gosh, how can't i be fuming mad at him? Not only he totally bailed on me, he made me worried hell of him.

If I'm a dragon, I would have roasted myself by my own fire! But as Ayid called me an hangus pokok I'll become, I was more of a drenched tree by tears. Thanks Ayid for being there, I feel so much better after sharing it with you my bucket full of worryness. It was already spilling out you see.

Argh. This man really is boiling my nerves. I'm fuming!!

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 2:00 PM

It was Good Friday yesterday, a real good one I guess. Hehehe

Scalded my hand with hot oil while frying for Shnookie HotDog Bread Rolls. Looks pretty bad from where I see it from. Planned for short camping since eons after the incident. So I made Shnookie HotDog Rolls, Fried Chixs and Phad Thai noodles to bring along. Trying to save some penny (=

They made loads of changes to our usual campsite I must say, disappointedly. Just 2months and the changes were drastic. View of the sea was blocked for sailor to deck their boats, good for fisherman but bad for campers like me. Gotta find a new spot for camping soonish. Had a hard time sleeping tho as noises were pretty weird after midnight. Either I was sleeping and Shnookie's awake or vice versa. Hehehe

Got home pretty early this time 'round. Shnookie's waiting for the arrival of his new comp. Plus, I've got recording later on. Hehehe

Earning some good cash there (=

Thursday, March 20, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:00 AM

I hope she's impressed or really keen to get me off to the second interview. She was convinced that I do have interest much in IT. Interview went alright. IT Officer will be my position. Plus DHL will be relying on me solely on their IT hardwares and system. If they get me aite. Just have to wait and see (=

Shnookie's R6 heading to Genting for her first time, hope she does remain alright after the trip (=

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:08 PM

Sometimes after long since you communicated with your once close friend, you tend to forget how they really are, and keep thinking that you know them so well. But I was wronged. It's been real long since I last had a good talk with Rasyidi, to add to it, after a year long of lost communication once. I totally forgotten how fun he was to talk to, how a total protective person he was of me. When I reminiscence, I think I miss that close friendship that I had with him once, only that now things have changed and we've both grown.

But I'm glad that least I can still talk to you now, thank Shnookie for understanding. Rasyidi's one friend whom I can never forget, not because of whether I once had feelings for him and vice versa, but because he gave me someone to learn from, someone not be, and someone whom I can openly share my feelings and thoughts with.

Anyway, DHL rang me up at 1900 asking me to drop by for an interview tomorrow at 9. Fearing plus excited as I've got history of bad interviews Shnookie sent me to have a look at the place. 10mins walking distance from Expo and service 35. Headed to Kak's place to borrow her smart pants then Shnookie sent me back.

I guess I have to wait for the clock to tick to 9 (=

Monday, March 17, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

The effect of the cough mixture is pretty long enough to keep me asleep for pretty long hours. Till I didn't realise that Shnookie rang me in the morning, then dozing off the whole afternoon till evening. I still remember that there was once I took the same mixture with coke and I was sound asleep when the sun is already blazing up in the sky, causing our whole plan to be cancelled. And that was the first time Shnookie seen me asleep for very very long time. Hahaha.

Well, it benefitted me somehow. I had loads of energy for Shnookie and was in real good mood to hit the roads, literally. Accompanied Shnookie to Courts MegaStore and he purchased an Acer Desktop. The same one we saw at Best Denki, but with more upgraded hardwares like graphic card and ram, plus a better OS and wider LCD. Sounds like a better offer to me. Off we rode to ECP, and sat at the waterbreaker like always. This time, the number of stars multiply by a double, the sky looks so much amazing making us wanting to grab the stars with our bare hands.

Got home after (=

Sunday, March 16, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Shnookie fetched me from work. The hours that I've been counting down since 0900. Looking at the watch hoping time travels faster to 1600. Hehehe very much looking forward to see him today. Guess I miss him soooooo..

Those two supervisors of mine are ought to distrub me again. One day, when I'm more comfortable I'll sure get back to them. And weird part today was, while waiting for Shnookie to finish polish his 2nd wife ouh i make the first thankyou, i heard someone calling out my name. And only God knows who, I've got no idea. Hear the voice, can't see the face. I know nobody there (=

Head home first to change afresh. Headed to Compass Point for ytf. It's been eons since we last had our weekly dosage of ytf. I miss the days where me, fidot and sheera would go ytf during school hours.

Headed to PS to survey desktop, found a great deal, but then i told Shnookie that we could get a better one within max $1k if we assemble ourselves. So, didn't purchase the desktop. Watched Step Up 2, great insipiring movie. Makes me wanna go back dancing. Hehehe.. Maybe I can make Shnookie my dance partner since he does have some moves going on with his butt there. Hehehe.

Somehow I yearn to ride with him to Johor at that moment. Headed to Tuas Checkpoint to Johor to fill up petrol.

Along the highway after the toll station, pass the petrol kiosk, there was this guy looking stranded at the side of the highway. He was beaming his headlight at us, but Shnookie went pass him as he wasn't waving. I felt a lil uneasy, so we U-turn and head back to him. And gosh, I was right. His bike was out of petrol. He was left behind by his friends that were up ahead. No wonder he looks worried hell. The next petrol kiosk is about 7km away. The idea of pushing his bike is beyond stupidity. Who would be able to push that GSX 1000 7km up ahead? So we went against the traffic, back to the petrol kiosk we saw previously, 5km away. Filled up 3litres of petrol to the mineral bottle, and sent it back to him. After filling up his bike, then only his two friend came, they U-Turn to search for him. Hehehe. I guess it's a lesson to him. He's new to the bike so he thought that tho petrol's already reserved, it could do as far to the next kiosk. A lil funny incident tho, but I felt so much of relieve he's back with his friends.

Shnookie and me rode off to the petrol station, then headed back to Singapore and home. It was a long ride taking the longer highway, tho it's much safer as it's much more brighter. I guess I'm really having loads of fun riding that R6. The pick-up's a killer. Makes you want to change gear all the time and go speed. That's why I love to accompany him all the way to Johor. Maybe one day, we'll travel up to KL yup Shnookie? Hehehe. I bet it'll be fun (=

Saturday, March 15, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:32 PM

Worked my hours in the morning. Getting fun over at the workshop, the supervisors have joined their forces yet again to disturb me. Geez. The most easy-going supervisor awards should be for those two idiots.

Didn't meet Shnookie today, well was suppose to then things got out of hand plus he had overtime till 1900, so I've decided not to meet him anyway. Just tomorrow will do.

Had a great chat with my newly found best friend. Emphatize him with his current situations, having problems with his girlfriend. But I hope you bear what i said in mind dear friend. No matter how matured or experience the girl is, the guy has to be more matured. Women are weak, no matter how strong they are. They may be independent, toughen up, but end of story they need someone to fall back to. For his situation, the girl is pretty much confused, and is looking for someone to show her the right way. As you much love her, stay firm but reasonable at the right time. A guy should lead. Like how you ride, you're the rider she's the pillian. You turn left, she follows left. She needs someone to follow, tho she's older than you.

To my Shnookie, not that you don't make me happy or spoil my day everyday. Just that sometimes, things you handle is too out of hand for me. But you know, I can never stay mad at you for long. I simply ♥ you.

Friday, March 14, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Back again to Sim Lim to get a change of the power supply Shnookie purchased earlier of the week. He claimed that it's faulty. Argued with him the night before on a bet of pizza for the winner.

His statement: Power supply (computer's) can run on free load, with his years of electrical experience.

My statement: The power supply (computer's) can definately not run on free load. Why? As it must have a source to tell that it is in need of power.

The verdict?By noneother than the uncle from AlphaWave. The shop owner:
Power supply can not run on free load, it needs a source to tell that power is needed. In this case, the two main plugs must be connected to test. The processor and the motherboard. And he neatly tested it in front of our eyes. I love you lah uncle. Hehehe

Hehehe! There Shnookie, tho you have years of electrical experience, your's machinery. Being an IT expert here, I know more about comp kay, tho I'm more of software rather than hardware. So now, I want Breeks. Pizza's your favourite. Proudly walks off with a huge grin on my face. For the first time, he was silent and speechless. Hehehe. I'm sooooooo happy!!

Well, he did got me a Swiss watch tho. Hehehe. Maybe guilty? Or maybe he's being very sweet. My Swiss was stolen 2 months ago, so he got me a replacement. It's super nice. Plus we got our very first couple watch. Hehehe. The reason for it?

There's red and white in it.

And that's not the only thing. He's obsessed with red and white.

Me: Papa, this year raye, what color do you think we should wear?

Shnookie: Hmm. Black?! Hehehe

Me: Not again. I'll have full of blacks!

Shnookie: How about you? What you want. I follow suit. Hehe. Which one you like. Brown? Pink?

Me: Brown doesn't suit you. Pink, ahh. Lets go pink. Pink and white!

Shnookie: Pink? Taknak lah. So girly. How about white?

Me: How about red? Sexy... Hehehe

Shnookie: How about RED and WHITE?! Kena ngan motor I!! Lawa lahh.. Confirm. Then we wear the watch we just bought. Then raye this year, will be all RED and WHITE! Hehehe

Me: Argh, not again..!

Excused his nonesensetical behavior, he's on R6 fever still. Everywhere he goes, anything he sees if its in red and white, he'll be saying it looks as nice as his R6. Kay stop it Shnookie and soonish, else, I'll spray you in red and white, and design you like the country's flag kay?!

After than nonesense discussion with him, headed to his place, checked his comp for it. Beyond my expertise Shnookie. I think it's ought you replace that 7yrs desktop. Headed to Johor to get petrol. For the first time, I accompanied him to refill petrol overseas. It was super fun, thrill and creepy. The highway's picth dark. Goodness his high beam's super high. Hehehe. Sent home thereafter (=

He can be really on my nerves sometimes, but that's what makes me ♥ him.

Our next embarkment: Red and White journey! Hehehe

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 9:13 PM

Elfi's off to NS thurs, so mom and me plus Darwisy gave him a goodbye visit over at Aunty Ann's place. Sat in the jamming studio and reminiscence the times when I was active in music and jammings. Still could remember every detail Suicide Story and Broken Closet did a clash jamming there. Hehehe.

Headed to Tamp Mart Mac's since Darwisy wants so much of it, did some groceries shopping before heading to Afghan to send him back home. Got home thereafter. Mom's all happy now, she's found a replacement to her stolen plant. Now, the garden's all packed again. Hehehe

Monday, March 10, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Dinner over at Banquet Simei with mom and Nana. Had my heart's content. Saw the luggages sis been talking about, nice royal purple, but no worries, will look for a better one.

Sim Lim for computer counterparts with Shnookie. Walked around to find a cheap power supply for temporary purposes. Will save up cash to get a high-end computer for graphic games soonish (= Munched at Mac's and decided not to go for jogging today. Hehehe

Headed to Chai Chee to meet sis for a while before Shnookie sent me back home. Hehehe.

Love you lah.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

The party was cancelled due to certain issues. So, no party for my sister's 28th, tho my mom has ald made her wide spread. Had dinner with Shnookie at home instead. Headed to Vivo to catch a movie.

The Leap Years.

Awesome movie, made locally. It does make sense, based on a true novel. Real touching. That's what I really call true love. Tho she almost made the biggest mistake in her life.

Bought some few items at Mustafa, looked high low for Shnookie's soccer boots but they were either out of size, or too expensive. Didn't get my running clothings as I can't find a purpose to get a new one. Hehehe. Rode home thereafter.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Worked my hours in the day. Kak Gorry was talking to me about her life with her mother-in-law. Sure was scary but funny. Poor her, she's just got to be patient with her in-law.

Sent off my cousin and aunties off at T1. Going to Mekkah for Umrah. Alhamdulilah, my cousin's on the right track. I'm happy for her. Insyallah, it'll be my time one day (=

Had Popeye's with Shnookie for dinner. And Shnookie's treat of Ritter Sport! Yumm. Headed over to Jiak Kim Street. Party out the night away at Zouk. Well, entrance was free for all, so we've decided to hit the club for a change. The dance floor was alright. Prefer Zouk KL better. The next time we're going KL, we must hit the club (=

Btw Shnookie, I think you can really be a racer. A GP rider. The ride today was extreme thrill. My heart nearly faint. You overtook the car at extreme speed and I swear I can feel the bus's heat from it's hazard light. Woah! But I still want it again (= Hehehe

Thursday, March 06, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Made up and made out. Literally of course. Talk things thru with Shnookie, and neither of us are in favour to end things between us. He admitted that he said it out of folly, that's an understatement as he was freaking sick for a week.

Spent good time with him today. Just miss being with him the way we were before we both got too busy. True love is not just about understanding, it's about falling in love deeper with the same person over again.

I'm looking forward to start our regular jogging with you. Rollerblading on Friday nights, soccer on Sundays (= i so miss miss that.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 10:57 PM

Been promising Nurul for our post outing since the previous month. So we headed to nearest TM to catch a movie Juno after dinner at Mac's. Pretty good movie, does show that age is not equivalent to experience or sensibility.

Milkshake for more talks before heading back home.

Decided to settle things down with Shnookie. I'm glad we're back to normality.

Monday, March 03, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 10:56 PM

I really am out of ways and words to prove to you how much I really love you, head over heels. I've tried to shower you and show you how much I really am in love with you, all the brain cells and all my heart vessels.

But still.. You seem to be in doubt. Why?

My age? My inexperience? My life which has yet to open up? Is it because I've not come across a super rich young fella? Our 13yrs age gap? Or is it because, you never really wanted me in the first place?

Which one, Shnookie? Which one?

I know papa, I'm very young. Still has a loooong way to go. I appreciate you thinking of my happiness first hand. Worrying that I'm making my outermost worst decision to marry and spend my whole life with the wrong guy, in this case you. I know you fear that you can't provide me much. You have so many insecurities on yourself, that you fear the worst for me. I know you want me to think it through and through.

Which I have. I'm aware. I'm just a mere 20yrs old. I'm aware, of my decisions. I'm sensible enough not to make the wrong decisions, the wrong move. I know, many people has doubt my capabilities, thinking I'm naive and can be made out of folly. I've come across with these people, but I have never, fallen into their stupid traps, or cursed lips. I've been guided by the Noneother. I've seen more than what these people have seen. I've felt more, I've thought more and I've mature.

My dearest Hisham/Shnookie.
Eversince I first saw you, my deepest wish is to keep you as my life long friend. Remember the first time you brought me to the beach? When the sun was reaching the sky, you hug me and said how much you really want to spend the rest of your life with me? The time you were searching for the lost stone with deep dives into the uncalm sea? I was just sitting on the sand, watching, studying your every move and amazed by your perseverance. I was so touched. I've never seen so much love that a guy is willing to shower his partner. Your undivided attention and time you gave me despite me just treating you just as a friend then. How you waited patiently for me to open up again, and accept your sincere love.

Do you know why I took some time to accept you? No, not due to your age. No, not due to your shortcomings. But because I ask myself, "Am I able to shower him with love the same way he shower me? Am I the most suitable person for him? Will he be happy with me?" I didn't have those answers, but you gave me the confidence. For I have long accepted your shortcomings since I first became friends with you.

Remember when you said all you have is a house, which is not even nice with just a 400cc bike and will be taking care of your parents?
My answer was: How certain are you life wouldn't improve in the long run? Are you the writer of your life? Taking care of parents is a responsibility that one should always never fail to fullfill.

Wasn't I right about it? Now, you even own an R6 600cc bike. Getting a better prospective with better pay. Life is unpredictable. As long as you work for it, believe in Allah, Insyallah, things for you will improve. Allah is fair. He wants His men to work for a living.

My decision is clear, and it has always been. I love you, with all my heart. And I've come to your life, to stay, grow old with you and take care of your parents and mine till end of their eternity, Insyallah. Go through thick and thin with you. For you make me look forward to the next day, give me thousand reasons to smile everyday. To live life fullest and never stop believing in Allah. Pray and work for success. You've showed me priceless experiences. I've never regretted eversince. I'm waiting for the day you say the vow and place the ring on my finger.

Simply, I ♥ Hisham.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Started my new part time job over at Ubi. Job's pretty easy, tho not much girls would wanna do the job. It's messy, plus dirty. You deal with oil the whole day everyday. But the pay's good. Since it doesn't do harm to my health, I think I might stay long. It's just the weekends (=

Shnookie fetched me off to Amer's for his daughter's cukor rambut. Met up with his friends, tho I don't mingle much with the ladies there. The only one I do mingle with is Nana, but she wasn't there. Together with Dol, we headed to Bukit Panjang for Shop N Save, then to the nearest coffeeshop for drinks. Shnookie sent me home thereafter.

My dearest Shnookie, please don't misunderstand me. It's just that it's been 4 weeks you promised but towards the end, you didn't fullfill your promise. Plus it's been 4 Sundays we didn't have it to just to ourselves, just you and me. You told me the ceremony was tomorrow, I was looking forward to today's gig. But then you told me at the 11th hour that it was today. Plus then, I didn't have time alone with you. Not that I wouldn't think sensibily but it's been going on. I'm not in a favour for it. I was just telling you, but you rode off. How can I talk to you if complicated situations arrive when you do this?