How sometimes suddenly in life you thought that you're over and done with something, it comes back to haunt you every single day of your life.

Reminiscence, matter of factly. It's weird isn't it. Some would say that you're not over the past, some say that there's still some feelings lingering from the past in your present. I rather declare it, as a sensitive person, whom remembers every single detail that she could squeeze to make herself remember, that it's usually plain reminiscence, of course, which some I wish to personally just pass it with just a casual remark, "I've been here sometime ago." eventhough it was then, with special someone.

It just sometimes feel so much unfairness, unanswered questions that will and can never be answered, for they are always hard to sustain or too hard to explain. Truely stabbed deep when you've placed all your trust (with all the small secrets you've ever had since you were 9) with the person whom in the ends, breaks your trust like how he breaks the ice. You let him know things that not even your close friends ever knew about. Open up your heart and let him blow you away, start to play a risky game.

Then you quit that game you feel of no use to resume. Use within all your will-power to accept to the fact, get over it, and get on with life. Never wish to be trapped in the same situation twice, to be hurt in the same way every again, but finding it impossible to meet to such extend, till you meet someone new, someone better. And when you take the stroll with the new man, when things start to linger deeply, when both couldn't get enough of each other, things somehow for you becomes emotional back again.

Maybe this happens at times when you're gonna finally get it over and done with whatever you ever went through and with whom you ever engaged to. This is the second time I've feeling this way. Maybe it's really true, "Ladies can never be left alone too long without a man." They'll start to ponder and wonder, some go astray, some becomes suddenly emotional to things that are happening around them. Only personal experiences will explain my words.

For whatever the reason it shall be that leads to where I am at, I'm glad I've gotten the chance to experience it all. I know that in this story, I must have caused some hurt and sarcastic remarks that definately would hurt anybody. For I'm truly sorry for it, hurting people is truly not my style. For mistakes that I've made, and that I'm going to make, I seek for sincere apologies to whom ever it may concern. It was truly, a great experience and memory for me.

"Am I suppose to be happy, with all I ever wanted it comes with a price."
True, but hurtful. To think that sometimes you're so near to what you've been dreaming of, but rather far from your reach. But it all fights back "No pain, no gain". Battle for your wants, till you know that you're defeated, then you stop. I know I'm working to make this new relationship work, if God will, in hope to stay with this man for eternity.

Regret isn't in my dictionary, for it's one useless feeling trying to ponder on things that can't be changed (unless you're like Tru who goes back time and saves the day). I rather place all my decisions made a wise one for I wouldn't make it then unless deem fit and never wish I could go back to the past.

Angels do cry, especially when stars collide. Just wait for the tears to dry up.