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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I ♥ Squadron 6:18 AM

It's the state of the mind where one is in grief and just fear to face up with the reality, thinking that she could accept facts and forgive forget it all.
In the right mind and a human with logical thinking and a heart, I vow to always forgive. I know I want it for myself, forgiveness in all the mistakes that I've wrongdone to others, thus, I want to forgive others.

Figured out the whole truth about it all today. I did lots of mind blogging and heart tampering questions I made myself face. I admit, I've been mean and unkind lately, with me becoming a total different person. I realised that Boyfriend. I know I just couldn't answer why I do such a thing to you when I say that I heart you. It's like something that I couldn't control or change, like as if it happens all beyond my will.

My heart is just so hurt and depressed by the actions and hurtful things that I've done. I'm a forgiver, but now I know, I do it the wrong way. As when I face something devastating, I tend to just pretend it never happen and I just look away. I say I've forgiven the sinner. I didn't realised I was doing that till today. Now I know, the reason why I was being mean and heartless to you B, is because I pretend to be all fine, but actually, I was just ignoring it, instead of looking at it, and really forgive you and forgetting it. I claimed I was being suspicious when I being revengeful without my own consent. Thus, whatever my wrongdoings were, it was a revenge. But I know now my real problem, I know now how to solve it all. I just depressed beyond words.

But I shall always keep this in mind:
"If God could forgive sinners, why can't we?".