It's Hari Raya Haji again this year.. And another Hari Raya without my grans.. It just feels not right and it feels so different without celebrating it with her. And I though that I would be alrite after Hari Raya, but things just turn teary when Hari Raya Haji comes again. No more signature laksa of my grans plus no more family gathering before the big day. And the most weird part is having Unty Shidah's place as the first official house for the day. Then went to Tok Noor's house and back to Sis's place and partically stayed there the whole day, in home clothes. How pathetic is that? Plus all I did was watch TV. I mean is this how to celebrate such a day? It is so not my family. Other than that, Abg Eja and Unty can over and spent the day with us. Then me and Nana follow abg home and...
Oh well.. That house brought so much memories of her. And it feels different. The happiness isn't there anymore.
But I really miss her so much. Things are just so different. And knowing that she doesn't exist anymore, things really change drastically. And people too change and things become topsy turvy. I miss seeing her. I miss her voice. I just want her back..