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Saturday, July 22, 2006

If U Remain Silent in a Moment of Anger, U'll Save Thousand Moments of Sorrow.. I ♥ Squadron 1:39 AM

It happened once again. The promise I made, that I finally broke. Not to say that I was hoping for it. But to say tht I've neva dream of repeating what wrong I ever did towards.. Nihow, it's pretty major. And I think my relationship is complicated. Maybe too complicated for us now. For anyone to really undestand us. I agree Ayg, that we should put an end to this relationship. Coz I think it's totally not the right timing. Plus with my attitude that's not toleratable. I admit. I'm in the wrong. I know. You've said it before, the tone of my voice. That I've been trying to control, to adjust and get over with. I did, somewhere in the middle. It's just that when I'm angry, I tend to be like that. Maybe now I know, that I'm the type who won't admit defeat. That's good. But not entirely. Especially when I'm in the wrong in the first place. "If you remain silent in a moment of anger, you'll save a thousand days of sorrow." I should have sticked by that. Like what I've been doing. It made me move on fine in life. But I guess, that small mistake made it big. I made it big. And I sincerely, am apologising. I think there's no way I can erase that off me. I told him I'll neva be against him, and that he should control his temper. But I'm the one who makes him lose his temper and make in all racked up. Don't U think that I'm not helping at all? I can't bear to see my loved one hurt, but why am I causing him pain? I know I love him so, but I can't bear to let him go. But I don't wanna think about how I feel. I think I should put him first hand here. I'm adding to his problems and misery. I don't want to be the one that caused him not to change for the better. Ayg, U should concentrate on yourself, and forget me. I think it's best coz I don't wanna hurt U any further. I'll love U always.