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Friday, December 09, 2005

I ♥ Squadron 2:54 AM

And so the one I care a lot doesn't care about himself. With his already broken past, his future is like breaking into even smaller pieces. With no one I feel like helping him, I grow attached to him. I admire him, because of who he is. If he could just see me rite now, he'll get what I'm trying to say. I feel sorry for him that he doesn't get the love I get. That he doesn't eat what I get to eat. Not that he's poor, but there's nobody to look afta him but himself. He's already 24, so his dad and family finds that he's old enough to be matured and draw his own path. For what still keeps me thinking, is our friendship suppose to be of a meaning? Am I suppose to help him with life? Bcoz the way we get to know each other is not common. Kay maybe it is now. Everytime I think about it, I find that there is a meaning to my existance and his existance in my life. Maybe I am suppose to help him.. Like a friend. But Allah didn't gimme any signs. Or maybe what he did recently is the sign. Well, I don't know. And I'm truly crushed into bits now. I feel so hurt n useless coz I'm not really helping him. I cry every nite, and think about him everytime.

"High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you"

And so my last message to him during that nite:
pls lah asid.. I don't know how u get involved with it. It keeps me thinking n im not in peace. I don't want u to destroy urself. i reali care for u n u dnt care about yourself. I don't want anotha in da rehab.. ur reali making me scared 4 u.. stop it..

I asked my friend for help, she told me things.. And got me these, to open my eyes and react fast:Thanks girl.

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